ok. life really sucks now. it's like i'm trying really hard to stay alive. sometimes, i wonder why i'm alive. to fulfill your purposes, lord? this is bad. i got so many datelines to meet and i really cant get my piorities right. how can i be doing 3.2 in advance when i am not even done with chinese. i really should finish up my chinese before doing anything else. i havent been liking chinese ever since like p3, now i think i like chinese. because of the interesting lessons that she conducts. i feel that every lesson should be as interesting as hers. not like other lessons. sometimes i just wanna fall asleep. and the weather too. wow. so cool. wonder which class has 2.4 today. they'll have an easier time. gosh. wish i had this weather. nowadays, it's usually, one day hot and one day rainy. and this repeats over and over. i wish, i wish everyday would be a special day, where there's no school, no CCA, no family problems, just me and the TV / COMPURTER. gosh. i think i'm dreaming, it's like a white christmas in singapore. except for snow city la. which is FAKE! so fake. i really need a holiday. a REAL HOLIDAY. without any problems. i guess i'm just dreaming the impossible. after syf will be midyears la.

anw. syf is in 2 weeks time. and now i dont even feel like play my saxophone. it's like i dont think any more practices will help. but i gotta believe in myself i guess? i believe in the band too. i ought to have faith in everything i do, and not give out so easily. i really hope everyone will work hard towards our goal, syf. which is in like less than 2 weeks time. oh. yesterday i saw this boy on the 243 bus, he was holding the sunrise and safari score. but it wasnt like really coloured. it was pretty raw. like no notes on it at all. then, i realised how far the band has come, and how really really close it is to syf. it's really time to give it our best. i hope mr chua auditions us today. i wont feel disappointed that if i dont get to play in syf, but i will feel disappointed if without these people, the band doesnt do so well. am i talking sense? anw. i can see the effort put in by the many people. i guess i should be really really serious. and not play a fool during sectionals any more. i promise.

being serious isnt that easy. forgive me if i stray from my promise. and also remind me as well.
all the best to all bands for SYF. ;D